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18 miles

My long run this weekend was 18 miles.  I was pretty nervous going in to it, seeing as I’d missed my last two long runs (the trip to Tennessee and being sick) and pretty much had run just a few miles here and there the past two weeks.  I expected to feel terrible.  I even, I’m ashamed to say, expected to not run it all.  All the same, I got up at 4:10am on Saturday morning, pumped, ate a tortilla wrap with peanut butter, and jumped on the treadmill by 5am, armed with Gilmore Girls and Julie and Julia.

18 miles in 2:58:17, 9:54 pace.  I had a brief 10 minute break at mile 14, when Dave was in the shower and Leo woke up early.  And I took 3 short walk breaks when I sucked down GU (miles 6, 10, and 13).  In fact, I actually felt like I could have run more, but we were due for an appointment with our tax lady, so I had to stop.  It was a really really great run, and really encouraging!  Here’s why:

In 2009 I lost 30+ pounds by changing how I ate and running more.  I maintained the healthy lifestyle in 2010, running 4 marathons that year.  At the end of 2010 I got pregnant, so 2011 was still healthy and I still ran, but it was scaled back and there was weight gain (necessary!).  I think I’ve (somewhat subconsciously) been afraid that the healthy lifestyle I had then was just a fluke or a fad, that it was unattainable to return to, that I’d never really be that kind of runner again or be at a weight I feel confident at.  

For some reason 18 miles felt like enough to shut down those fears.  I absolutely can be a runner “like that” again – if not even better.  I absolutely can be at a weight I feel healthy and confident at.  That healthy lifestyle IS my lifestyle, not a thing of the past or a blip on the radar.

What’s something big you’ve realized about yourself lately?


17 thoughts on “18 miles

  1. You are amazing – 18 miles on a treadmill is insane but you did it. Even better, you told that inner mean girl to STFU and realized that you can feel healthy and confident. You go, girl!

  2. That is amazing! I think the best part is the legacy you and Dave are passing down to Leo….not only the healthy eating and exercise but also the confidence that you absolutely can do it. You should be really proud of yourself!

  3. So happy your run made you feel like that! It’s true! It was NOT a fluke and you CAN be that runner!!! And 18 on a treadmill?! You go girl!

    I realized yesterday that my goal is not to be skinny. I need to lose weight, but I want to be strong.

  4. Wow, 18 is impressive. Yr running life certainly isnt a blip, I think it’s an integral part of you. Your blog has always inspired me bc I can tell that you will always run. Xoxo

  5. 18 miles on a treadmill!?!! You deserve a medal for that! After about 4-5 miles, I’m ready to poke my eyes out! hehe! Congrats thought on 18….and for maintaining your healthy lifestyle!!

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